As non-Indigenous scholars, what does it mean to engage with Indigenous methodology and how can Indigenous methods be used to offer unique ways of knowing in a responsible manner? What are ethical concerns using Indigenous methods given our own positionality? In this autoethnography, I grapple with the ethics of using Indigenous methods as a Pakistani-American Muslim woman. Specifically, I write about and analyze poetry, journal reflections, and field notes from conversations in and outside of the classroom about my journey understanding my own power and purpose in the academy as a settler of color. Using AsianCrit, I found five themes were particularly salient: coming 'home' to myself, culture and comfort in food, class as a counterspace and kitchen table, power and paying it forward, and trusting my intuition. In the second part of the paper, my instructor and I engage in dialogue about the question of employing methods as a non-Indigenous scholar and reflect again on the role of food, reciprocity, and responsibility within our relationship.