This essay describes Colin Irvine's process of applying and interviewing for the position of Vice President for Academic Affairs and Dean of the College at his alma mater. Irvine recounts the timeline of events from being notified of the position at the college to awaiting the notification of whether or not he was accepted for the position. He describes the conflicts in his personal life that added to his stress throughout the process, and how he felt as though he had to apply for the position regardless of the potential conflicts in his personal life.