Expanding upon previous theorizing of Art[middle dot]I/f/act[middle dot]ology published in "Qualitative Inquiry" in 2008, this article offers autoethnographic re:collections of a performance/paper presented at the international "Academic Identities in Crisis?" conference at the University of Central Lancashire, held in September 2008. The conference version used textual and photographic bricolage as a method for re:viewing public and private subjectivities in the continually becoming of an academic. The artifacts highlighted during the performance/paper combined the (mostly) public--including but not limited to drafts, publications, ah-ha moments, and setbacks of a PhD journey--with the (mostly) private--photographs and poetries of mothering and daily life. As with the performance/paper that preceded it, the contribution of this work "se veut" (wants to be) an approach to working with shadows of embodied knowing/becoming as/in academia. (Contains 3 figures and 11 notes.)