This performance autoethnography shows the author's struggle in finding his place, scholarship, voice, and body, into the academic setting. Mixing together memories of his lived experience with sugar cane workers, notes, and leftovers of different fieldworks, plus 6 years of life as grad student at the University of Illinois, the author looks for ways to decolonize inquiry; to decolonize academia. From a present space created by a deep immersion in the past, he challenges the White's man ideology, trying to create a performative action/ space, whose goal is to bring more justice and dignity to more people. This performance discusses and interrogates forms of representation, knowledge and experience, method and theory. All of these issues are pertinent to any field of knowledge which deals with the lives of human beings. (Contains 26 notes.)